jaz;

yes, they hate me.
i know it.
i have concrete evidence
to support my stand.
i dont want to feel this way
but i have to
and i dont mind feeling this way

anyway,
they are the facts.
just look at the seats beside me
during physics lecture
that row is "just meant for me"
i suppose?
and i bet maths lecture
they sit beside me
'cause there's no other seats.
it's okay,
i have my friends in mind.
though the seats are empty;
they are filled.

i ran only 7 out of 10 rounds
for P.E today.
my nose couldnt beat the test.
my mouth and lips were dried up
and OUCH
i taste blood on my lips.
i ain't sure of smth
but sure i wanna say it.
even if i'm wrong.
they ran infront of me
and overtook me only once.
but they ran 10 when i'd just done 7.
failed maths?
or simply ______*

*sighs*
i really hate school.
but who has the choice to choose
whether or not to study?
i wont say that i quit
but recently
the feeling of being capable of
supporting myself
with the money i'd "earned".
with my intelligence and
overwhelming interest in money
"money MATTERS"
i can stop studying.
but
do i have a choice?

back to studies.

jaz`