jaz;

heaven's path.
really?
i cant help it but STONE.
he's supposed to come over to our house today (next block only)
'cause it's the maid's off-day.
but apparently, he didnt.
he couldnt.
i hate that`
just why must it be like that!
freakin' world that we're living in.
*@#($&*%)!#$&(*$%!!
the first ever CUTEST ahgong i ever knew.
i still remember his voice.
the way he says "BYEBYE!"
his smile.
his usual slacking posture.
how he claps his hands or snaps his fingers to music.
any music that i play.
how i used to disturb him when i was a kid
and that he'll scold me jokingly.
death is sinful.
it's too painful.

in the midst of breakdowns;
just thinking of him.
no more so-called "ahgong's house" and all.
what the hell!
you fuckin' return him to me!

jaz`

"xinyi, wake up and go over ahgong's house...
ahgong passed away already."  -mum
i stoned in bed, i didnt go over.
he's supposed to come over...