jaz;

EMOTEDDY! Your damn note freaked me out. Do you have psychic or something? Anyway, thanks for the note. Though I couldnt get much meaning out of it. And sorry for being late. LOL! Just part of my sincerity, it's not like you know my blog. Or maybe YOU DO!? Hahahaha. Right.

"Your sweetest dreams may turn out to be your worst nightmare."
Your EmoTeddy

(What's with the "Your"? LOL!)

Well, I dream dreams and always laughed at how stupid those dreams could be but this afternoon I'd actually woke up crying. Urm, just few drops of tears trickling down that's all. Humph! I dreamt of him. Him..... Yea him. *lost for words* I dreamt that we patched and you know how badly I wanted that. That'll probably be the best birthday "present" ever! But of course, nawh. Like so forceful. But hey sweets, I'd actually talked so much, to him, in my dreams (: I usually get stumped. And I'm pretty happy about it. Though it's just a dream! I even asked for a hug, that I pretty much longed for. I really want a "goodbye" or "breakup" hug or something, it's like nice? I remember how he said I was like a koala bear clinging on and sleeping in his arms. (I love to do that when I sleep, all curled up under my cosy blanket.) And that's when I teared, soon after - woke up. It weird how physically linked we are to ourselves mentally, in my dreams in this case. Woke up crying, my oh my.

What stunned me was his msn nick! "IN THE END IT'S JUS A DREAM..." What a damn emo-ish coincidence! Another psychic or what!? Though it's not linked at all for sure! Awh man, I feel terrible. *hides under blanket*

Other than my sweet sweet dreams that fascinates me during my sleep, life to me is a total bore. Life isn't even Life! I mean, cooped up in my room with my lappy, going out only for meals, television; and what I meant by "going out" is stepping out of my pig sty and into my living room. Oh, and of course I bathe! Hmm, no more soccer matches, even more lifeless it seems. I dont mind sleeping all day, 'cause I have nothing better to do, and I'd say, that's the best thing in life at the moment.

Right, FREESTARLERS. Sorry, sort of injured so can't join you guys for jogs recently. And big hugs for those who'd cleared their majors! HIP HIP HOORAY! Urm, ZAI, postponing of jogs wont be because of me, you could try asking YUN (: He'll say NO though. PINKY asked for 7-aside at Kovan. Not sure where but anybody interested just let me know. (fugging lazy to phone everybody)

On the phone with KYLLE. Then once again, her boyfriend interrupts. YUCKS.

Audi-ed like electricity's free. Well, lots of noobs think that I'm pro. I'm rather amazed by my chains today (: Happy shit. It's nice to have people going "WAH PRO" and arrows to you. LOL! But I always dont reply. Oh! How could I have forgotten!? I woke up in a not-very-okay state and started to play Audi immediately. Yup, yet to wash up and all. Nobody gives a damn anyway! Then I was fugging blur enough to accept something that I shouldn't, emo-ed through the game. LOL! What a mistake! Cant I freaking differentiate a circle and a cross!? And why didnt it come to me that circle means accept and cross means reject?! WHAT THE FUCK. Oh well. That's all I wanna complain.

Hmm, not sure if I can sleep now.

JAZ

Would things be different if I didnt throw that question at you
on the twenty eighth of June, Midnight?