jaz;

to be honest
i'd not studied a single thing this week.
it's pretty much a waste
but just damn me.
i wont push the blame.

reckless.
going all out for the wrong goals.
i dont know why either!
making myself tired physically
and worked up mentally.
what the hell.

i feel just like a zombie.

havent been handing in my assignments on time;
do things halfway, not completing anything.
as if given up 90% of life.
yet 100% of the 10% on physical trainings.
FIT, to fail
or UNFIT, and score?

nawh.
dont tell me all those shit.

i just love that cooling, biting sensation.
it's a challenge to freeze myself.
restrained.

jaz`